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Editor's Note: Introducing Bash Harry, a beauty, fashion and lifestyle blogger from Brunei. She blogs at heybash.com, and her blogging and story-telling style inspires me. Bash, keep up the good work. Aim high. You will go far.
What do you do?
A lot of things but mostly I blog. Right now, I am focusing on the dreaded future like figuring out universities, wondering how everything will fall into place and where to eat later. I'm rather hungry.
Describe yourself in a few words.
Slightly manic and a little neurotic, but in a cute way. That sums me up rather well. Most days I teeter between acting obnoxiously loud and suspiciously quiet. Depending on how much I sleep and how much caffeine I ingested.
When and why did you start blogging?
Officially I started blogging in 10th April 2014, a day before my mother's birthday. It was called 'Bash Says Hey.' Though, I made no use of it until January 2015, when I started blogging regularly. I took a leap and bought a domain, and Hey Bash was made.
I decided blogging the same way other decisions are made, through boredom. I just didn't expect it would become a large part of life. I wanted to do something other than studying and knitting. The desire to do is innate in me. I hate boredom and when you're a blogger, you're never bored. Perhaps overwhelmed, but never bored.
Why "fashion, beauty and lifestyle"?
Because to be completely honest, I'm not good at much else. I don't even think I'm good at fashion or lifestyle. It's just expected when you're interested in putting war paint on your face every day. They correlate well to highlight who you are as a person, in appearance and personality. For the most part.
Self-taught or course-trained? Who inspires you?
I am a course-trained makeup artist, certified twice when I was sixteen, but self-taught in SFX. I love SFX more than I love beauty makeup, but to know SFX, you must know beauty first. Terrible irony.
The girl who inspired me the most to do SFX is Klaire DeLys, who I've been watching for almost seven years now. She inspires me to be more creative and focus on quality than quantity. As for starting normal makeup, it's the classic case of puberty and low self-esteem.
Share a few highlights from your journey to date.
Featured on Kristal FM for Bloggers vs DJs during Hari Raya 2015 was incredible. I was on a team with social media influencers, feeling as uncomfortable as a novice among professionals. We won! Not because of me, but we won! And as you know, winning is everything.
In 2014, I entered Bonnie Corban's International SFX Contest and was a Top 5 finalist! Even better, she recreated the look and its up on YouTube here!
Mini-highlights also include being featured on @hijabfashion, who has two million followers, and hitting 500 on bloglovin. They are pretty cool feats in just one proper year of blogging. Having recognition as a blogger is pretty darn cool too.
Three goals for 2016.
Go to Law School, read 52 books and convince my dad to get me a functioning laptop that doesn't crash every two weeks.
Three noteworthy bloggers.
The Rustic Trove - http://therustictrove.com/ - Fifi is my favourite Bruneian Blogger, though maybe that’s because I’ve met her and she’s absolute cool personified. She runs The Rustic Trove, which is a lifestyle blog where she showcases her stunning photography in the UK.
Love From Berlin - http://www.lovefromberlin.net/ - If you’re looking for incredible photography and helpful lifestyle tips, then LFB is perfect. I adore Rae’s stance on conscious living, teaching life in numerous ways, whether travelling or cooking.
Not Your Type - http://www.notyourtypeblog.com/ - I recently found Not Your Type, a Pakistani lifestyle blog by Areeba. I love how much of her personality shines through her blog. Funny and witty, this blog is a wonderful place to brighten your day.
Best piece of advice you've received.
"You were given a voice, so speak."
My parents regret teaching me this Aesop at four years old. Hence why they have a daughter that never shuts up, whether through speech or lexicons. I took this lesson as a reminder. That I am my own person with my own thoughts and feelings. I am in control of my actions. If I need to speak, I speak. If I need to change, I change. If I need to do, I do.
What do you see yourself doing in three years?
Alive, I hope. I always hope I'm alive by the next year. If not, at least I know I lived a good life. So if I'm still alive in three years, 21-year old Ne will probably be studying for Law finals somewhere while crying inside, chanting 'I can do this. I can't do this. I can do this.' Similar to Current Me.
Editor's Note: Creating content for Projek Brunei is a process. Since the launch of this website in 2010, we have featured over 80 different stories. Each story is different, but there are two connecting themes. The stories are about people who are not afraid to step outside of their comfort zone, and about people who take action. This story is about Amali Roslin, the co-founder of Beluneu Films.
What do you do?
I graduated from UBD with BA Professional Communications and Media. I co-founded Beluneu Films, but I’m currently focusing on running UBD TV, which is another venture that I founded. I’m not a movie buff, but I’m obsessed with making films. Hollywood is my obsession and so much so that I’m constantly analysing their products to see what it is that makes them aesthetically pleasing to me.
How and when did your interest for film begin?
At the heart of it, I was interested in the performing arts and the entertainment industry since Form 6 where did live performances in music. Speaking about entertainment, music and film goes hand-in-hand. Thus, I felt that there was a natural progression into film. But I oscillate between the two from time to time as I enjoy both equally.
My interest in filming began when I got my first laptop, which was in the year 2011. My first editing job was using a consumer software for a university assignment for my sister. During that period also, there was a DSLR revolution with the release of Canon 5D MKII where movies and tv series in Hollywood started experimenting using the camera in their productions. Likewise, in Brunei I have to owe Visual Dimensions (Adam Groves) for spearheading the movement here through his web-series. That, and Adam, I guess piqued my interest and inspired me to try filmmaking.
Tell us about the start of your journey.
As with a number of my peers, it started from doing video assignments for modules that I took in UBD. My major was in media and communications but I made my first video for a policy assignment which was at a neighbouring faculty. At that point my only ever experience were with digital cameras, using the auto settings.
I happened to watch the “Band of Brothers’ Making Of” on tv. That was where I learned the aspects of filmmaking particularly in editing. From that I started to understand elements such as tone, framing and visual effects, how they enhance the story and give a particular visual character to a series or film. From then on, I called myself a video editor.
Ever since I started to edit my first video, I was obsessed in achieving the “Film Look” where I would be googling and youtubing for tips and tricks in getting that Hollywood look. That, coupled with tv shows about filmmaking, gave me the knowledge that I needed at that time. As an editor first, with the fact that I didn’t own a DSLR, I needed to team up with someone that owns a DSLR and has the same outlook towards filmmaking. That was when I met my colleague and cinematographer Abu.
We have the same passion in filmmaking and similarly understood how a final piece of video is made. With a couple of my other friends we founded Beluneu. There we made our first short using a DSLR with relatively minimal filmmaking experience. There was a mix of creative energy from everyone which is always a good thing, and from there on, my journey as a filmmaker started.
What inspires you?
There are a lot of things and people that inspires me. When it comes to influential people, I’d say directors such as Steven Spielberg, Martin Scorsese, James Cameron and Quentin Tarantino. Recently Christopher Nolan, JJ Abrams, Ben Stiller, David Fincher, Ryan Connolly, Wes Anderson, Stanley Kubrick, Guy Ritchie, Akira Kurosawa, Francois Truffaut and Baz Luhrman, all to name a few.
Some actors inspire me to want to make films because they’re just so good and almost always gives the best performances. They are Leonardo DiCaprio, Heath Ledger, Christian Bale, Hugh Jackman, Cate Blanchett, Amy Adams, Michael Fassbender, Benedict Cumberbatch, Johnny Depp, Jack Nicholson, Matt Damon, Al Pacino, Damien Lewis, Brad Pitt, Ryan Gosling, Kirsten Wiig, Bradley Cooper, Guy Pearce, Collin Farrell, Joseph Gordon-Levitt, Kate Winslet, Isla Fischer, Charlize Theron, Marion Cotillard, Keira Knightley, Olivia Wild, Anne Hathaway, Eva Green, Jessica Chastain, Brittany Snow, Anna Kendrick, Emma Thompson, Tom Hiddleston, Emma Watson and Rose Byrne, from the top of my head that is.
When it comes to shows, it has to be the insightful ones that you find online like Film Riot and the other how-to shows. Of course as I’ve mentioned earlier, The 'making of' and 'behind the scenes' are always a good way to learn how to make a film. Then there are shows like Science of the Movies that discusses not just the techniques, but the science that goes behind filmmaking.
Then there’s the movies such as Inception, The Secret Life of Walter Mitty, Shutter Island, The Grand Budapest Hotel, The Great Gatsby, The Dark Knight and many more others from the directors mentioned earlier. Miniseries such as Game of Thrones, Boardwalk Empire, Band of Brothers, Newsroom and the likes.
Tell us about Beluneu Films.
Beluneu Films is a company that I co-founded with a couple of my other close friends namely, Abu Wafiq and Shariza, where we invested together in the hopes of making it bigger one day. At the moment, we are on hiatus and will probably turn away from big projects as we’re concentrating on our own endeavours at the moment.
Basically we strive to produce the best quality, high-standard visual works. What we are working towards is to produce feature films that are Hollywood-worthy. Thus, the journey is still long and there are still plenty to learn.
As of now, I’m concentrating on my project of setting up UBD TV which is a media establishment housed in UBD.
What projects have you done so far?
Our personal projects include two short films The Same Song and Woebegone, based on the original ideas by Wafiq and Shariza, respectfully. We’ve also done a couple of wedding coverage and a live event coverage.
We’ve also collaborated with The Creative Core BN (TCCBN) which is a startup that focuses on highlighting individuals in the creative industry and to become the core for creativity for Brunei. We did a series called I.Am and did an event Dancersmeet with them. From the name, it was basically a season where the focus was on dancing and the stories of the featured dancers. Our part was the video production where we were able to gain a lot and learned a valuable amount of filmmaking production techniques. It was a great project and we hope to find some ways to work with them again in the future, definitely.
Our best work so far has to be Colours of UBD. A video made for a competition in UBD, which was taken to compete in the Best Institution Corporate Video at the QS Maple forum at Doha, Qatar. the video was awarded Bronze.
What are some challenges you face when it comes to filming?
It depends on the type of shoot and what the shooting is for. But the start is always hard. As is with all art forms, to come up with a full concept is always challenges. Our shorts, for instance, it was quite difficult to write a script and screenplay because none of us had the experience in it. Then to write it in a way that it can be visualise is very difficult, especially for me since my storytelling is still weak.
For the most of it, like the I.Am series for TCCBN, the challenge was mostly to fit with the look and tone that they were opting for. Because my style is heavy-contrasting look, very serious, whereas theirs are more light-hearted and fun. But for that type of shooting, the main challenge was not having enough manpower and not having the right type and amount of gears/equipments that we wanted. In a series like that, the first day of shooting is very difficult especially when you you’re not quite sure how things are going to go and can’t really predict how things will pan out. The first day is always tiring as you’re trying to figure out what are the best ways to shoot it and how to manage the time, because again, we weren’t sure how it will look like.
Speaking of time, for everyone who’s starting, it’s always a luxury. You don’t seem to have enough time to do what you want to do. And as they say, the final product is never finished. Even until today and years to come, I would still have that lingering thought that I could do more with it. Which is good because that will become a checklist in my head of do’s and don’ts.
For something like the Colours of UBD, the challenge was to bring a fresh derivative on a cliché concept. Because one, we had to adhere to the criteria, two, we weren’t sure if the audience would understand what we try to convey as there were no voiceovers and texts. Thirdly, the biggest challenge was the actors. We had to capture UBD in a sense conveying what Colours of UBD means to us, so we wanted to go with the concept that the people are what colours UBD. But since it was the semester break, we couldn’t get any more than two actors on call. Luckily, there were still a number of people going to the institution and so many thanks to them, we had faces and people in our video.
Basically, the challenges are the lack of experience with storytelling, semi-professional videography gears and equipments, and getting enough people to participate in our productions. However, all these challenges has their merits and that because of them, I now can visualise a production timeline and make it as efficient as I could.
Any upcoming projects?
For the other venture that I’m doing for UBD TV, we’re pretty much occupied until August 2016, at least.
Recently we’ve launched our music project and released our first episode on 6th February 2016. The projects ends with the last episode to be uploaded March 26th. Following that, we’ll be doing a mini-documentary promoting selected clubs and student bodies in UBD, so that future students as well as current students will be more informed about them. The project is part of our flagship online show on YouTube called Everything UBD. So for that, we’ll commence by the end of February and will end by July-August 2016.
Lastly, our first and will be our biggest event is the Film Festival that we’re planning for August, just to top off our year. It will be in commemoration with the 30th Anniversary of UBD, 1st Year anniversary for UBD TV and to top it all to celebrate the 2016 graduates. This project is a collaboration with TCCBN as well as supported by Candas. It’ll be featuring up and coming young local filmmakers, as well as selected UBD student films.
All our work can be viewed from the UBD TV YouTube channel and Facebook.
What advice would you give to a fellow aspiring film-maker?
I’m not really an advice-giver. But what I can is suggest and share my goal with others.
We are at the dawn of something great. Local talents are slowly getting recognise and the appreciation for filmmaking is increasing, thanks to a notable few who’s pushing the filmmaking industry up.
Let’s huddle and grow this industry together not just because it is our passion, but because we want to inspire others in taking the leap with us in making a career in this industry a reality.
Let’s not just create for the sake of creating, but let’s create for the sake of improving by making collaborations, upgrading our standards and assisting one another. Let’s not restrict ourselves to what we already know, but let’s push the creative boundaries to the limitless possibilities.
Editor's Note: When preparing features, I usually stick to a balanced ratio of words to photographs. Photographs help us put ourselves into the story. They supplement the images we paint in our minds about the narrative. However, every now and then, it is good to break with convention, especially with a storyteller like Shalani.
I know Shalani personally. (He's a fun guy to be around; people who know him would agree 100 percent.) He's involved with HeartKids Australia, and I am pleased to share a snippet of his journey with you through this Q&A. Find out more about HeartKids Australia here or connect with them on their Facebook page.
What do you do?
Sorry to open this with a statistic, but the easiest way to explain this is by using one: Childhood heart disease is the single biggest killer of kids under the age of 1 in Australia. That’s a fact that not many people know. Now officially, I’m a Fundraising Manager for HeartKids Australia, a charity that focuses on fighting this disease by funding vital medical research and providing much-needed support services for these kids and their families – in a nutshell, I do what I can to raise as much money and awareness, so that I can help the real passionate heroes and geniuses to deliver these services and medical advances.
Describe yourself in a few words.
I rarely get asked that question, so I’m not really sure how to answer that. I guess, I am what I love. Which would make me: My Family & Friends. Thien-Thien. KFC. PS4. Friday nights. My hair. Batman. Oh and KFC. (all to varying degrees but that’s pretty much it)
Would it be fair to say you are involved in 'Charity' work? Or is there now new market terminology for the work that you do?
I would definitely say I am involved in charity work. Neck deep in it in fact. But to be honest, I don’t care what people call it, there’s always going to be a bad stigma associated with it, whether it’s “look, it’s those annoying people on the street asking for money”, or “I bet you THEY take most of the donations anyways and almost none of it goes to the beneficiary”…or even “Soooo, do you like… even get paid??”
But the way I see it is that, if I can get paid just enough to live and be directly involved in becoming ‘the change you want to see in the world’ (I wish I invented that quote but I didn’t), then I’ll be doing alright.
How did you get started in charity work?
I’ve been in the charity sector about 9 years now (Writing that out sounds very scary to me). After I finished my Masters (incidentally, that’s like the 3rd(?) time I’ve ever actually mentioned to anyone I have my masters, so me just dropping that point right now is definitely on purpose - gotta use it sometime right?) I was feeling a little disillusioned with life in general. I’m sure a lot of kids and younger adults who finish school go through a version of this in their lives, and I was no different. Mine was specifically about heading in the direction of having a desk job that didn’t matter. Not that I dreamt of being a famous food blogger, or rock star, (or batman) or whatever else I thought would be along the lines of “do what you love and you won’t work a day in your life’, I just felt like there was no direction in my life. Like what I was going to do did not matter.
I met with a job recruiter anyways, ready to face my fate, and he who was feeding me all these mundane jobs: one was for a marketing coordinator for a signage shop. Another was hotel liaison (not sure what it involved really but I’ve never liked the word ‘liaison’ :p) can’t remember the rest but that goes to show how boring they were.
Then the recruiter dropped some papers and a fundraising role fell out of it. I just saw ‘charity fundraiser’ on the job role, and I was intrigued. In a about a millisecond, I weighed the options in my head and the one that stood out the most was “I can do my bit for social responsibility and all that crap, and even go home and feel better about the work I did that day, and even be a douche and tell my friends “I saved a life today, what did you guys get up to today??” … AND get paid for it??” – So I went for the interview and the rest, as they say, is history.
It’s not the noblest of reasons and I will always be the first to admit that – in my industry, there are a lot of super passionate people, and I would be at the lower end of that scale if I were being brutally honest - but sometimes, even the most un-noblest reasons, for the noblest of causes, is still a lot better than most things I could be doing.
Three life-lessons learnt from your involvement in charities so far.
Damn. That’s a tough one. I just find life lessons and experiential advice is tough to give when sometimes words don’t really do justice compared to experiencing it yourself. I’ll always be the first to say that I’m the last anyone should be taking advice from … But that being said, I would say:
If you’re going to do it, do it because you want to. And in some cases, because you need to. No one is going to thank you for it more than the guy who gave them a discount on the second hand barely used new iPhone that they just sold you. You are always going to meet more people who are sceptical of what it is you do, than people who admire and respect (or even I daresay are inspired by) what you do. And if you think making money for big name brands was hard, it will never be as hard as doing it for a ‘good cause’ so you need to do it because you actually do give a shit. There are of course other reasons and other things you could do this for, but without you wanting to do it to change a few lives or do a little good in the world, then you’re just going to hate it.
One of my biggest ‘irks’, is when people are willing to pay hundreds of dollars for the third TV they don’t use, or thousands of dollars for a hand bag, or a new phone, that’s never going to see the light of day …. And not many people bat an eyelid (that’s not what irks me – what people buy is their own business.) – What really irks me is the level of scrutiny people give when they support or donate to a good cause. Like, I would rather give $10 to a homeless guy where there is the chance he or she will spend it on drugs instead of food, instead of a Chanel hand bag where I know it isn’t going to feed a starving baby. (although I’m sure a Chanel bag would definitely complement my style) – I guess what my life lesson here is, even when you do it because you want to, or you have a calling… Remember most people don’t have the same level of passion as you do. And that is usually followed by people who are always trying to find a reason to not give. Which is ultimately followed by the same people trying to diminish what you do. Not all people are like this, but a fair few are, enough to get on your nerves and make you question what you’re doing.
This is cliché (but clichés are clichés because they’ve been true so many times after all), don’t ever give up. The rewards aren’t monetary, they’re not even usually associated with career progression, but you do go home reminded in the fact that the world is in some way a little bit, even in the tiniest way, better with you in it. It does wonders for your soul and confidence. And as I mentioned before, you get to say outrageous things like you saved someone today and not be a complete liar (still makes you a douche but after the long hours with no monetary or career acknowledgments, all you have sometimes is the douche comment.)
When it comes to giving to charities, are people generally open-hearted? Or have you found that the opposite is true? Is there research to back this up?
People, generally speaking, are open hearted and good. Essentially we all want the same thing. Walk around and ask anyone if they would pay $100 to save a life, and you’ll find 90% of the time the person saying ‘yeah sure’ (and the other 10% of the time you’ll meet an interesting character you’ll probably want to tweet about). The problem is that we have so many issues in the world, and differences of opinions and mindsets, we all have different ways of trying to ‘do’ good.
With HeartKids, everyone will want to help these kids living with (and many dying from) heart disease, but one person may want to donate to an actual family but not research. And another will want 100% of the money they give to go to the kids without a thought of how or who is going to administer that. Or someone will want to volunteer their time, even though in some cases it makes it more expensive to manage and train volunteers. Or someone will give lots of money for tax purposes. Or some will give money, because it makes them feel better at the end of the day – the thing is there is absolutely nothing wrong with any of these scenarios. The problem is managing them all in a way where everyone will be happy with their donation and support, and the way it was handled. The reality is, that’s really tough to do without it costing a lot of money (which is also a part of my job: keeping the costs lower, so that more money goes to the beneficiary).
But I have to say, that the people that are super passionate, who want to remain anonymous, and give purely because they know that these kids, or animals, or the environment, or whoever it is going to, really need it. They’re not ‘better people’ than any of the ones I mentioned before, cos making an effort to give is more important than how much … but I have a special spot for them. I love those people. And I am so surprised by how many of those people I meet every day. (Just last Xmas time, someone gave $10k, because he thought kids with heart disease need it more than he did. He said he loved to drink and smoke and do all these things that these kids could and should never do, and he was fine – for now at least – and said it just wasn’t fair on them. He wanted no big thank you. Nothing. Respect.)
Regarding research, there’s a lot of it out there, and they all basically point to the fact that people in general are giving more than ever before, whatever their reasons. Year on year it’s been growing. Whether it’s been because of more marketing or whatever, more people have not only given more times on average, each one of them have been giving more money too (i.e. the amount of donors have increased, and the average gift of what they give has also increased).
Interestingly, I did a research paper in uni through my masters (4th mention) and I did a comparative study between Brunei and Australia, and although Australia and the UK are known to be quite giving countries, you’d be happy to know that Brunei was pretty up there too.
Share a few highlights from your journey with HeartKids to date.
This is a little hard for me to answer because every day is a learning curve for me. I had a corporate desk job a few years ago, and I realised that it was quite the cushy, laid back job that had a bunch of deadlines here and there which I was fine with, but it wasn’t until I spent a long time in the fundraising industry that I realised that even though the level of stress and work and sleepless nights is about the same (arguably more) you are able to feel like you’ve achieved much more in the fundraising sector. Knowing that what you do has some direct and indirect impact on potentially supporting someone that really needs it does wonders to your psyche.
I think I mentioned it before, but the highlights happen when you choose to focus on the goodwill that every day people have. The people that you meet on a daily basis, that give thousands of dollars to a charity and want nothing in return, or the many different people who are always trying to find a way to help your charity, or more importantly, proactively trying to do what they can to do a little bit more in their lives to help others. These unsung heroes – and they are, as they do the things they do to help and not beat their chests to their 4,000 FB friends how awesome they are – are the highlights I have in my career.
Do you miss Brunei?
I absolutely miss Brunei – I’ve been away since I was about 11, but that place is always home to me. I just came back recently and although a lot has changed, the place and the people...it was like I fit in, like a jigsaw. I am not well travelled as much as most Bruneians I would imagine, but I’ve done my fair share, and in my line of work, you meet a lot of people from all walks of life and cultures, and I can truly say, I’ve never met anyone that are like Bruneians. I guess you can truly say we’re really one of a kind.
I love telling people I’m Bruneian too, that always makes tickles me (it’s usually followed by a “funny. You don’t look middle eastern.” Or, “that’s awesome….. uhm. Where is that?”
I miss a lot of things, which go without saying. The food (thien2, roti jons, nasi katok… the list is endless), the people (my family and friends, even the casual way people are smiley and friendly there – when you live in a big city like I do, on-street smiling is a bit of a rare commodity). ‘Escape rooms’, which I got into the last time I was there, I miss that. I miss going to the kedai runcits and getting the bulletin and a hundred plus. I miss lazing at home on a Sunday, watching astro while the aircon is blasting and watching your family snooze around you.
You’re always going to miss the things you love.
What advice would you give the 16 year old you?
There’s a lot of advice I would give my 16 year old self, but there wouldn’t be a point, I wouldn’t have listened to anyone much less myself - but assuming my stubborn 16 year old self would listen I’d tell him:
Eat more chicken rice. You are REALLY going to miss that. Drink more water. It will feel like it, but high school is not the end all, be all of life. It will get better. And more fun. Speaking of high school, get a haircut. Middle parting your hair is called a ‘bum part’ for a reason. Buy some Google stocks. And maybe Facebook. Enjoy having knees that don’t hurt. Spend more time outdoors. Don’t be such a puteri lilin. And finally, call your mum (actually all your family) more. WhatsApp doesn’t come out for a long time.
What do you see yourself doing in three years?
Mate, I don’t even know what I’m doing tomorrow night… but I’m happy just plugging away doing what I wanted to do all those years ago in that job recruiter’s office – just want to do a job where I get paid enough to live my life, go home and not be completely irritated by what I achieved that day, make a difference, (I hate this phrase and you’ll notice I’ve been trying to avoid it all throughout this Q&A, but alas, I ran out of similar phrases) … and ultimately be able to sound like an over compensating douche to my friends while remaining stoically confident.
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